Failures

The time is 8.30 pm. I should be studying Quantitative Studies 9 hours ago. However, I didn't. I choose to watch movies- Stephen Chow's Sixty Million Dollar Man, Inkheart and Discovery Channel Megafactories. I even had some fun shooting people with my AK47 in Call Of Duty 4.

God I hate numbers. I fukin hate it, especially those other than plus, minus, divide and multiply. I'm not good in Maths. I'll never be good with Maths, especially Add Maths. Those who used to be in the same class with me knew it. I failed every single one of it, including the one in SPM.

I've messed up. I've messed up everything ever since I got out from VI. I choose a course without looking at the prospectus, I've delayed my resits and I got my study loan retracted. In the end, everyone graduated including Jerry (Chong Kah Wai), and I'm stuck with some "EZ" student status with tons of papers to resit and worst still, I have absolutely no idea how the hell I'm going to score a PASS in 3 out of 5 papers. Ha, what a failure.

Perhaps I shall consider repeating the subject if I failed again this time. I ain't gonna let my time, money and effort dumped in for this diploma wasted. Even if I've lost interest in studying, I vow to myself to have at least a Diploma in my hands. Monday is coming soon and may god bless me.